Monday, November 21, 2005
i have a whole shopping bag full of free samples from the med clinic.and the thought of taking them all right now gives me such peace.but i can't do that. i can't do it to my sister. especially not now. and it makes me angry that i don't feel that it's my choice whether to live or die. i should have died a long time ago. it should have been me rather than my brother.
yeah, this is really an upbeat post.
the pdoc kept asking me questions and it was making me so nervous. i felt like i was supposed to have answers that i didn't have. answers that i never have.
sean and i met before the appt. for coffee and i asked her how NYC was. i have no idea what she told me. i was trying to listen but i just couldn't concentrate. i don't remember the questions that Karen (the pdoc) asked me either. i only no that she got a lot of i don't knows and one word answers.
i've been feeling crummy since friday.
she couldn't give me samples of all my meds, so that means getting deeper into debt with the pharmacy.
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6:32 PM ::
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