Friday, June 02, 2006
that was a close one
a guy from the cable company just came to my door for a payment. i imagine he was going to turn it off if i couldn't give him one. i forgot all about it. i didn't pay last month. i saw him pull up and assumed he was here to shut it off. it's nice that they give you one last chance to pay. the guy was really nice too. a cutie if i was ten years younger. although he had a moustache and a beard. i'm sick of facial hair. haven't been with a guy without facial hair in like fifteen years. enough already.
so glad the kid didn't shut off my cable. i don't watch tv. but i'd be lost without my modem.
i don't think that it's really sunk in about sean. besides the initial hysterics, no emotion. i keep thinking of things that i want to do with her. things i want to tell her. then i remember that she's not going to be there anymore. and i confuse myself.
the barbarian respected the message that i left her this morning about needing some time, not wanting to meet with anyone for a while. she didn't call and try to talk me out of it.
i tried to sleep the day away but it's too humid. plus i wet my pants again last night. oh yeah, i went to the doctor and he told me that i have a severe case of laryngitis. for this i went to the doctor? i told him that i was waking up coughing and wetting myself. he wasn't impressed. didn't offer any pointers to make that not happen. i hoped that he would give me a pill for incontinece. no dice. marsha's going to be thrilled-NOT, that that's all he had to say. i see her sunday afternoon. and i see rosemary saturday afternoon. rosemary is nice. we always find something to laugh about. and i think i'm going to see marsha on monday and tuesday. but i'm not sure about monday. i'll find out sunday. blah, blah, blah, blah...
i don't know that i'll have any say in who my new social worker is. i'm kind of nervous about that. sean and i had so much in common. fuck it all. this was really harsh.
Posted by Lisa ::
3:49 PM ::
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