Tuesday, November 08, 2005
i'm really feeling lost. the voices have been strong the past couple of days. but that double shot of geodon this afternoon helped. and the low carb candy that sean gave me so that i'd have something to eat with it. i'm trying to think about dinner but i'm not really hungry and i don't know what i want. there's nothing in the house. i'll have to order out or go to the grocery store. i can't picture myself going out again today.
syd left a very nice comment about my sister's problems being hers, not mine. but i've always been very protective of my sister even though she's older. it's just tearing me up knowing that she's going to be through with the man who supposed to love her, and losing her house at the same time. i think if i can swing it, i'm going to give her a check for a thousand dollars, then maybe she can save up the rest, help her get an apt. i hate when people break up. almost always, there's one party that doesn't want to. and although i've never been dumped, i can only imagine how it must feel.
marsha was so sweet to me today. said that i knew there would be bumpier spots in the road sometimes. and yeah, i do know that. it's just hard to take when they're here. if i didn't have my sister, i'd be bumping myself off the map. i don't care what my brother thinks, or how it would be for him.
i'm so pissed that i voted "no dogs." even if she could stay with me for a while so that she wouldn't have to stay with him. it must be hell living with someone who has dumped you.and losing her house on top of everything.... hopefully they'll get a really good price for it and have some money left over after paying off the mortgage. i feel so bad for her. haven't heard back about my invitation to dinner thursday night. i wish she would lean on me. i don't really know if i could take it or not. i think i could. i'm pretty good under stress. it's the normal days i have trouble with.
sean asked me how i was going get through the night and i told her that i would probably blog. so here i am, doing that.
Posted by Lisa ::
6:44 PM ::
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