Tuesday, June 13, 2006
another tuesday
saw the squid. sean never called her back. i don't know what's going on. so what else is new?
the squid is going to continue to call me every morning for a check in.
i see marsha this afternoon. maybe i'll be able to talk to her. geez, i can never talk to anyone. it's easier over the phone. i can write things on the blog that i could never say to a person sitting across from me.
the barbarian is going to take me to the food pantry tomorrow. i've been eating mayonnaise sandwiches. not so bad. i like mayo. i don't know how it's going to go. i'm usually ready to bolt with sean there. i don't know how i'll be with the barbarian.
i'll probably run screaming from the building. it's such a small area with so many people. i wish sean could take me. but i can't cancel. i need the food. i have 96 cents in my bank account. i just hope the bag of cat food will hold out. they're used to having the dry food to munch on. got plenty of canned food still.
i saw my sister yesterday. she looks so much better. she's gained a little weight. must be those prime rib dinners. :)
i forgot to ask when the wedding would be. how could i forget that? i was a little out of sorts yesterday. i'll blame it on that.
on the drive to her house, there was a tractor trailer behind me. and i thought of just slamming on the brakes. but i don't want anyone else to get hurt. i've been thinking of stuff like that less lately. i think the clozaril is doing its job. i keep hearing how clozaril has changed people's lives. i don't feel much different. of course,it's hard to judge with sean bailing. how much of it is me and how much is the situation. i wish i could just stay at home in my bed. in the dark. i think tonight is good for watching Chocolat. even if the Depp's irish accent comes and goes. or maybe Benny and Joon. i love that movie. but i probably won't watch anything. i just don't have the attention span.
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9:07 AM ::
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