Sunday, June 11, 2006
good news
h's father has been in the hosptial with an infection and he's going home tomorrow. i didn't get to see him but i just got off the phone with his girlfriend and she said that he cried when she brought up me going to see him because he knows how hard it would be for me. he's really a sweet man. took me a while to take to him. he's a bit eccentric. the first time i went there for dinner (the first time i met him), he had his dog in a highchair at the table. he was feeding the dog off his fork. that took me aback a bit. the second time i was there, he was smoking pot and exhaling into the dogs mouth. that took me aback more than a little. i thought it was mean. wrong. i still think so.
his girlfriend asked about sean. i couldn't even talk about it.
we also talked about h and his anger. she's the first person who's acknowledged to me that they see it. my sister calls him controlling. she keeps saying that his fiancee doesn't know what she's getting herself into. he is controlling and passive-aggresive. but he's also sweet and thoughtful if you give him a nudge or two.
how did i get on all that shit? so sorry.
i wonder if my sister is married yet. haven't talked to her all week. i just called and left her a message.
well, i just got a phone call from H saying that his fiancee dumped him. sounded like some of the same issues that we had. he was trying so hard not to cry on the phone. i felt bad for him. it happened suddenly. i felt so bad for him. i said that already.it looks like he's going to be staying with his father for a while. he has no money for rent. he pays for an office and a storefront and he can't control when his costumers pay him.
(written yesterday)
talked to my sister a bit ago. she sounds so much better now that she's back working. wish that would work for me but i'd just end up panicking and in tears. or too afraid to show up in the first place.
man, i just keep thinking of things sean and i were going to do together. i just can't get the reality through my thick skull.
anybody know what the difference between a pond and a lake is? we have a pond here in town. not sure exactly how big it is. going to have to look on the map. years ago, a friend of mine, who had a small pond in her backyard, was swimming it and an otter popped up right in front of her face. scared the hell out of her. don't know how it came to be in her pond. we're not near the ocean or anything. i don't remember if they relocated it or if they just let it live out there. there were plenty of fish for him to eat. i imagine he'd be fun to play with.
there i go, changing tenses again....
must be time to wrap it up.
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