Wednesday, December 21, 2005
more stuff
well, it's finally light out. i've been waiting since three o'clock. unfortunately, with the light the day doesn't look any better.
and it fuckin' cold out there. went out to get some cigarettes. guess i'll have to open the box with my coat in it. a short-sleeved shirt and a long sleeved shirt over it just didn't do it.
i should have the regular nurse today. i don't suppose she'll apologize for messing up my meds those three days. i'm sure she'll have some story about herself. don't get me wrong. i like her and sometimes find her endearing and she's really been there for me when i've hurt myself or was not doing at all well. sometimes it just gets to me that the service is charging one hundred dollars per visit so that she can come in, dump some pills in my hand and talk about herself.
went to the pdoc. she kept everything the same, med wise. i told her that i'd had a couple of good days. she said something that i didn't know. she said that nicotine can interfere with the absorbtion of medications. never knew that. i told her that the voices were better, which they are. we made an appt. for next week. sean won't be able to come with me but i think i can muster up what it takes to go myself.
my sister called about two thirty, crying. she was in a parking lot in town and wanted to know if i could go to the grocery store for her to get some food for the dogs. she said she just couldn't take it any more. i said, of course i can go. (thinking, how the hell am i going to do that? i can't go for my own stuff half the time. so i started to cry, which of course wasn't going to help anything.)
she called back about twenty minutes later saying that she got home all right and that i didn't need to go to the store. that dumbass could go out later and get some burgers for the dogs and then they could order out. i told her that if she ever needed to, she could stay here. i still don't know if she's planning to move out or not. i don't want to ask her too many questions. i don't want to upset her more. she said that if i still wanted to go to dinner tomorrow night, to give her a call during the day and she'd see if she was up to it. i hope that she is. she said that she's been eating and drinking, or trying to. she said the she couldn't afford to end up in the hospital and i wanted to say, that's where you will end up if you don't eat. but i didn't think she needed to hear that.
Posted by Lisa ::
7:20 AM ::
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