Thursday, October 05, 2006
wednesday, october 4th
i wish i had taken more pictures of ella. the last one that i took was of her asleep on the back of the chair. i wish i had a full face picture. i don't understand why i can't cry. i think it's one of meds. i feel guilty because i haven't cried over ella. i've cried over mice and lizards but i can't cry now. the cat i've had the longest, 17 years, has died and i can't even shed a tear. doesn't seem right. i miss her terribly.
i get to see sean tomorrow. that's the plan anyway, i hope she doesn't cancel. she'll be away next week. in Boston. i'd love to go to Boston with her. she's about the only person who feels safe enough to say that about. i haven't been to Boston in years and years. the only thing stopping me from going is me. i wish i could just drive there. i wish the bus was a possibility, but i couldn't stand being on the bus that long. sitting next to a stranger. no, no, no,no.
i think there's a coup going on here. against talksalot. they seem to have a big meeting going on next door minus me and talksalot. who knows what they're talking about. if i thought living in a condo was going to be like this....
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