Monday, February 20, 2006
not much to say
been sleeping most of the weekend. including today. but i woke up this evening after horrible dreams. i think it'll be a while before i go back to sleep.
oliver is so cute. i let him out the back door a few minutes ago and he just was knocking at the front door. he gets up on the railing and bangs on the screen. now he needs his pets before he goes to have a snack. i don't know what i'd do without these cats. the thought of them in those little cages at the animal shelter has kept me alive more than once. literally.
it's not as cold as it's been. below zero, my ass. it's warmed up into the twenties, thank goodness. i don't want to know what this months gas bill is going to look like. although we've had some really warm days. maybe it'll all even out.
i've seen no one but the nurses since friday. i'm due to see sean tomorrow. and i have the squid tomorrow. has it been a week already? damn. i wonder if i'm ever going to get used to going there.
having some iced COFFEE!
oh, the nurse this morning brought my seroquel, after my going without it all weekend. she woke me up actually. i was up around four and decided to go back to sleep for a couple of hours. my alarm is really loud. i use my cell phone. didn't wake me up this morning. guess when i answered the door, i had that look like i'd just gotten up. she gave me the "good morning" that you give to someone who has just gotten up.
still haven't heard from my sister. i don't know what's up with that. if i wasn't such a wuss, i'd call her. but i'm afraid that by not answering my email, it's probably not something that i want to hear. and i can't deal with that on the phone right now. i'm too much on the brink myself for her to say something negative. i don't know when our relationship got so tenuous. i know that she's having a really hard time right now. but to shut me out. she's never done that before. usually i was the first one she'd turn to. now i seem to be the last. i don't know why i'm writing about this, it's just upsetting me. on to other things....
i didn't see one moment of the Olympics. that's very unusual for me. just didn't have the interest. depression reigned. i usually like the winter olympics better than the summer ones. i love the bobsledding and ski jumping. and i guess the snowboarding was pretty impressive. and i love the speed skating. but just couldn't find the interest to sit down and watch any of it.
right now i think i'm writinig because i don't know what else to do.
Posted by Lisa ::
8:52 PM ::
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